....hellllooooooo
its been a while since ive written in here.. mainly b/c i cant be bothered 
i might be going out later today...by myself since none of my "friends" have bothered to include me in their plans, which sucks really, i meanyou hang out w/ people for a year, and you think everythings fine and w/out warning they just start ignoring you.
oh and another thing, this guy i like *** has decided he wants to go out w/ my best friend, which is ok by me if it makes him happy, but she doesnt like him, shes only going out w/ him to piss me off.. god knows why shesmy best friend, and when i try to tell him he always changes the subject or tells me that im just jealous.. which is true but thats not why im telling him...
uno of all the places ive been on the internet ( MB's, online journals and stuff) Xanga has the kewlest smilies  heeh arent they kewl?           ... ah ok that was just pointless.
i went to my grandmothers yesterday , and hung out w/ my cousins. which was great, we dont get to hang out that much, mainly b/c we live an hour anda half away from each other. so its good to catch up.
i have 5 cousins altogether ( Kirsty 24, Ben 22, Daniel 15, Nathan 13, Greg 10), but i only hang out w/ Daniel Nathan and Greg b/c theyre closer to my age.
Daniel has changed alot, according to my aunty, hes rebelling, but i think its something more than that, theres something wrong... he was about to tell me but i had to go, but i think its something pretty big, b/c he looked really bummed out and he kept looking at his phone to see when they could go.. idn it might just be me but ive kinda got a gut feeling...
okies enough about my family.... lets talk about... Katie K
goddamn where do i start, she pisses the shit outta me she takes me to the Head Of Students, and tells her that i threatened to bash her (which i didnt), so we had to go to the school counsilor and all katie did was feed her shit like " oh but im a good little christian girl, i dont lie, shes not christian so she would" and im just sitting there.. trying to contain my erge to throw my chair at her. so anyway the counsilor obviously believed her because she never once asked me how i felt about the whole situation she was saying things like " so katie you dont feel safe while Emily is around*looks at me* GRRR! so i have a whole terms detention when i go back to school...
and another person whos pissing me off is my mum, god i hate her, i know im gonna have a million comments say she like " you should never say you hate your mum" yea well too bad b/c this is my Xanga and i'll write what i want.. god i hate that woman, everything i say she just twists it around to make me look horrible and shes just so fuking condisending towards me.. i hate it, it makes me wanna punch her, shes a shrink so she uses shit like "ok so how does that make you feel" and "im sure you do" and shit like that to make me look like im the one whos over re-acting.. and of course, never once in my life has dad taken my side... that shits me too, its just them against me.. them and then me... 2 1 guh im just so sick of it. but i try not to let it show how much it effects me, b/c feeling sorry for yourself never gets you anywhere
ks well im off.. i think ill go out for a smoke or something
bye
EM
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